I really hope I can stick with this. I miss writing. I miss my site. It may be silly, but after all these years, I still think about my characters and the stories I created for them. I know how young I was when I finished those stories. But I also know how much work I put into them.
What I’ve learned in the years that I haven’t been writing is that no story is ever actually finalized. I completed 5 stories but they’ll never be totally done. The original version of Destiny Part One was completed in like 2004. But I knew I wasn’t done with it. I revised it for another complete version in 2005, and I began an ambitious project of “issuing” it in 2008. Stories have to be completed but they’re never really finished. Even print copies of books, even the one that everyone loves, even the kind that get turned into movies…they’re not finished. Bestseller or not, there’s always something the author can find that they would have made even slightly different.
I hope that when I’m 35 I won’t think of these characters anymore. But it’s going to be a while before they’re gone. They stay with me. Their stories are complete but they aren’t final. I’ll keep tweaking Lana and Kieran’s story, making small changes here and there. I hope I get to the point where I can do that for all my stories. And, of course, I want to write a new story. I actually have a few pages worth of unrelated scenes. I’d love to be able to fill in the huge gaps in between.
First I’m going to post Sitting, Waiting, Wishing. I completed it over two years ago but I never did finish posting it on the old site. There are a few remaining chapters that have never been online. I really want to use this often, whether it be for posting/reposting chapters or writing about what inspires me, and writing about…well…writing.
No matter what, above all, I write for myself. But I do hope, if you’ve come this far, that you’ll join me and keep reading.
